skee's daily happenings: haven been thinking for some time...

8/01/2004 01:01:00 AM

Sunday, August 01, 2004

haven been thinking for some time...

went to BB's farewell party at her place after work. drank a bit. met up with onine ppl. kwek and lenny as usual did their best at entertaining us and as usual we had a good time. the tension between loom and sui i think eased out a bit cos perhaps more company then more buffer. at least everything seemed fine. anyway liv had a bit of problem getting used to life here again after 2 months in US, work, play and travel. clubbing scene very diff so well i mean she's kinda used to the get drunk and well dun be responsible for actions after tat. okok.. maybe i'm exaggerating.. well nothing serious happened lah. but well.. she's been pretty wild these days.. and well like i told her.. i mean her friends will get bothered down by having to take care of her after she's down etc. so well now she's turning over a new leaf. well not exactly but smth along the line. then at bb's place today, bb got pretty high. she's pretty sober i'm sure but jus tat she's talking a whole load of nonsense. hahaha.. was pretty funny lah. but at least she's at home so no biggie. hai.. was jus thinking how does it feel to be totally drunk and be irresponsible for once. well i haven been tat drunk yet lah. at most i'll jus KO after puking damn many times. oopps.. been too responsible already sometimes need to let loose. hee. anyway jus a thought lah. i doubt i'll talk a lot of nonsense when i'm really drunk will jus KO. and dun worry i wun drink myself silly anytime soon. haha maybe if there's an occasion to?

well parents and everything is been on ting's and vin's blog these days. guess i grew up in an entirely diff environment. was a latch key kid. have my own key. go home anytime i wan cos parents usually not at home. can play bball at school until late. but well think i always know my limits lah. and i guess i earned my mama's trust. guess my mama had no choice but to be an open parent. though there are not entirely no rules but well i can jus say tat i'm allowed wider boundaries. pros and cons. though had slightly more freedom but well mama and papa usually not at home so not much contact with them. when i wake up they will be at work already. when i come home at night, they may be asleep or too tired to really interact. jus wanna say tat perhaps sometimes i would appreciate my mama to "guan" or in this sense i take it as care abt me more. at least u will have home cooked dinners, talks abt activities for the day and stuff. tat's why i dun think i'm gonna have kids next time if i wanna to concentrate on my career. i dun wan my kids to grow up like me. although i think i ended up pretty fine.. hahaha.. at least not much of shadow on my current life. my mama will always reproach herself when she remembers wat she read in my diary when i was young. you know like forever waiting for mama to come home or pick me up from school kind. i dun wanna regret anything or leave a black mark on my children's childhood. hai.. so well ppl appreciate wat u have. nobody has a perfect childhood. everything contribute to making wat we are today and forming our beliefs, so we are who we are partly becos of our upbringing and our parents. nobody is a perfect parent but we must understand that they always try their best. so try to think in their shoes sometimes... they may say hurtful things but end of the day they still love us.

anyway think i haven been thinking and spending time with myself like CK, David says.. so well maybe more thoughts will come when i have time to think abt life...

oh ya wanna thank all for coming for bash once again. forgot to thank Cheong chye aka cang cang to come down all the way from home and went back to KR to have orientation at 8am. hope ya had fun..
and sorry for being such a bad host, zapping here and there.. not able to dance with u guys much the whole night.
3 more weeks to bb's leaving for canada. hope for the best for her and i think i'm damn going to miss her cute little butt... and her super cutesy smile. and her super te-ing.
1 more month to yeeky's leaving for canada. going to miss my onli active kee kee club member. really love her man... her bright eyes, her toe rings.. hahaha her smile... her wen zhong and FCP nature.. and yes a leo girl hahaha....

skee the great

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